Dear You…

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I don’t know what is this that I feel…
I feel like I’m missing you when I don’t even know you
When I don’t even know if you exist


I feel the pull of the night

Making me think that under these stars

There is somewhere
From wherever part of the world
Someone who thinks and writes the same way

This time, I feel that it’s about me


I feel like you are calling me
Speaking to me in words I cannot hear
But faint prayers that say ‘wait for me’
Whispered pleads that make this heart beat fast
It is as if I feel that you are also missing me..


Who are you? And where could you be?
Time may have thought for us not to see each other yet
Time might have spared us first, preserved
‘Let us wait in line, or in time’


When the day comes and we finally meet
I’ll make you see that even though we’ve each been through a lot
Before finally being with each other’s arms
I have always loved you and waited for you

Right from the very start


Sorry if I have mistaken you for someone else
Or if I thought their promises are good enough to make me not wait for you
Sorry if I have doubted you’ll come
I’m sorry if I thought you didn’t deserve me because of my past
I’m sorry because I was so desperate to meet you that I went out of my way to find people who really didn’t belong to me
I’m sorry if I’ve destroyed relationships
Sorry to have hurt someone only to find out it was not them who I really want
Sorry to have made others wait for me unfairly while I try to make myself love them back

Or sorry because I have muddied/trashed myself waiting for them to reciprocate my feelings
Sorry I have done all these things just because I couldn’t wait for you
Just because I wouldn’t believe there’s something great still yet to come
That you are that something and someone great.


I’m sorry.

Let me start again,

This time, I will wait for you.

And when that time comes that we finally meet, then the song came true:

‘That God blessed the broken road that led me straight to you.’

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